I’ve been doing a crappy job in general lately with posting somewhat regularly on here, but I have been super avoiding TTC/baby-related posts. The reason for this is two-fold. First of all - there isn’t much to report. We’re still trying, and we’re still not having any success because nothing is going on (by that I mean I am on cycle day 128 … not good - and yes, I’ve tested, like 3 times. All negative, so …) and the second reason is that thinking and writing about TTC and babies and whatever just makes me bummed out because it isn’t happening for us the way I had hoped it would.
To help remedy the situation (and hopefully bring some baby dust our way), I have made an appointment with an OB/GYN - she even specializes in infertility (although we don’t really know if that’s necessary yet). If I have any luck at all, she will be very proactive about things - I would love it if she would prescribe something to help speed the process up. I’m very hopeful that this doctor will be able to give me some answers (and good news) so that I can stop worrying that something is terribly wrong and it’s never going to happen for us … ugh, it kills me.
And as if all of that nothing going on isn’t enough to drive me insane, I just found out that my cousin who has a 6 month old baby is pregnant again (isn’t she just a fertile Myrtle), a girl I used to work with (who got married 2 weeks before us) is pregnant, we went to my BFF’s baby shower last weekend, and we saw “What to Expect.” Oh, and I see my pregnant boss every single day. It fucking sucks. As excited as I am for all of these people (and as much as I enjoyed “What to Expect” - according to B, I am totally, 100% going to be like Elizabeth Banks’ character), I just can’t help but wonder when it’s going to be my turn. And as I wait for my appointment on June 5th, I’m trying to stay positive … but it doesn’t make talking or blogging about these things any easier. I hope that changes soon.
24 May 2012
03 May 2012
New Year's Resolutions: A Progress Update
Now that we’re entering the 5th month of the year, I figured it was about time to check in on my progress with the resolutions I made for 2012 (I’m giving myself bonus points on following through for this post - wahoo!). At this point, I’m not doing great, but it could be worse - I guess that’s a win. My main problem is that I lost focus for a while.
If I had to grade myself on my progress, this would be my report card:
Be a Better Wife: C. I have a bad habit of taking my work frustrations out on B (and I have a lot of work frustrations!), and I often turn to sarcasm and name-calling. It’s difficult to censor myself because he does the same thing with me (an example of affection in our house is me calling him a dick and him questioning my ability to exist despite my incredible stupidity - we both laugh at each other’s insults). I need to work on thinking before I speak and using real affection instead of hostile affection.
Be More Mindful of Spending: B-. I had been doing a pretty decent job of keeping up with our finances via Mint instead of just relying on Hubs to keep me informed. We had both been doing a pretty good job of keeping our frivolous spending down … until we went on vacation. I encouraged B to go a little crazy at the Braves Clubhouse Store in Atlanta - we spent about $200 there. And I’m a sucker for the pictures taken at the aquarium, so we spent $30 on one picture. It’s not worth it, but it is. We have also started going to more movies, which has increased our spending. B bought a movie pack so we’re technically saving about $5 per movie, but we also tend to buy fast food before the movie, so we spend more than we save. We need to cut back again on the extras we’ve been indulging in.
Follow Through: B-. I have completed a few craft projects from Pinterest (and even tried a recipe!) and I’ve been doing a pretty good job of keeping up with blog posts, but I got apathetic with a major scrapbooking project before I really started it. I have a hard time maintaining my motivation. I think the biggest speed bump in my goal to follow through is feeling like I don’t have enough time, so I’m planning on creating a schedule to help me better manage my time, which will hopefully result in me following through and finishing what I start.
Keep in Touch with Friends & Family: D. I talk to my mom and at least one of my sisters almost every day, but I’m not counting that. I recently started writing a letter to a friend of mine from college - if I actually finish it and mail it out, I’ll boost my grade a little (there’s that beasty follow through rearing its head again). I have been doing a little Facebook communication with a couple of friends also, but I don’t think it amounts to much. I tie this one in with following through and hope that planning my time helps this improve.
Read More: A+! Thanks to my Kindle Fire and our Amazon Prime subscription, I’ve been kicking some books’ asses! Every month I download a free book from the Amazon Lender’s Library, plus I also purchased 2 physical books. That’s a 200% increase from the number of books I bought last year (that may be an exaggeration, but you get the idea).
Make a Decision about Grad School: (graded as pass/fail) FAIL! To quote a law drama - I am hopelessly deadlocked on this case. On the one hand, it’s my dream to get a Masters degree so that I could become a Marriage and Family therapist if I wanted. On the other hand, my desire to become a mom - and a stay-at-home mom, at that - has made me reconsider my grad school plans. Not to mention the cost - yikes! This decision is going to take a while to play out, and I’m officially removing it from 2012’s resolutions.
Hopefully in another couple of months I’ll have made some real progress.
01 May 2012
May Day
Today marks the beginning of the month of May. Where did the last four months go??
It also marks the month that I am hoping to get more assistance in our baby makin’ endeavors. When I had an appointment with my NP in February, I was told that if my cycles didn’t start regulating themselves (I guess the prenatal vitamins she put me on were supposed to help with that?), we would talk again in May about perhaps starting to use prescription medications (at the time, Metformin was mentioned) to help speed the process along. Now that it’s May, I’m getting a little antsy.
I’m planning on waiting a couple of weeks before I contact my NP (I’ll actually probably call on the 13th - that was the date of my appointment in February) to see what she thinks now. Since my last appointment, absolutely nothing has happened (aside from the fun stuff ;D) - super disappointing, and I really don’t think it can be healthy either. Hopefully she will stick to what she said before, and we’ll be able to get things going again. My fingers are crossed, and any positive vibes would be appreciated.
It also marks the month that I am hoping to get more assistance in our baby makin’ endeavors. When I had an appointment with my NP in February, I was told that if my cycles didn’t start regulating themselves (I guess the prenatal vitamins she put me on were supposed to help with that?), we would talk again in May about perhaps starting to use prescription medications (at the time, Metformin was mentioned) to help speed the process along. Now that it’s May, I’m getting a little antsy.
I’m planning on waiting a couple of weeks before I contact my NP (I’ll actually probably call on the 13th - that was the date of my appointment in February) to see what she thinks now. Since my last appointment, absolutely nothing has happened (aside from the fun stuff ;D) - super disappointing, and I really don’t think it can be healthy either. Hopefully she will stick to what she said before, and we’ll be able to get things going again. My fingers are crossed, and any positive vibes would be appreciated.
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