Tonight will be my 4th night of Provera, which gets me one step closer to the next cycle - thank goodness. It will be interesting to see if I notice any differences between Clomid and Femara (aside from not getting those damn hot flashes). Better follies and eggs would be fantastic. We'll see in a few weeks I guess. I need to work on writing down questions I have for the doc, because everything pretty much flies out of my brain when I have my feet in the stirrups, staring down the vag cam. The number one question on my mind right now comes from a place of confusion - thanks nurses. When I called to ask for the Provera, the nurse said they'd put the order in after I took a blood pregnancy test (negative, obvi), and then once the Provera worked we could start my Femara/Follistim cycle. I don't remember my doc saying anything about Follistim right away ... I don't know if it was a mistake or I misunderstood the doc at my last appointment, but I need to get that sorted out for sure. I really really don't want to have to give myself injections, and I know there's no way in hell B would give them to me ... ugh.
I had to "come out" about my infertility to one of the administrators at the daycare, which I really didn't want to do. Our summer schedule will be starting soon, and I wanted to make sure to request the same hours as I had last summer (6-12:30) so I would be able to get to my appointments when necessary, and I figured the only way she'd take the request seriously was if I gave her the full explanation. I expected compassion, considering she's a mother of 2 young children and we work in child care. That was stupid of me. It took 2 days for her to email me a response, and it was disappointing at best. She was "so sorry to hear about the situation" and would take that into consideration, but she'd been having meetings with the rest of the staff and taking notes on their requests too, so the outcome is TBD. Thanks for the answers, much appreciated. [Eye roll] I guess if they're not willing to work with my appointments, I'll have to make a decision about my future with the center. We can't really afford for me to not work, but there's no way I'm going to take the summer off of treatments - I'm not going to lose 3 months because it's inconvenient for them. I've sacrificed a lot for this job, but this is non-negotiable - I will not sacrifice my fertility treatments for them. Let's hope it doesn't come to that.
There has also been some positive stuff going on while I've been taking my blogging vacation. B bought a new (refurbed) TV - 70 inches of HD in yo face. It's pretty awesome, even though we really didn't need a new TV. B had been watching sales for months looking for the perfect giant TV, and when he found the offer for this one, I just told him to go for it - my princess gets whatever he wants (love you, boo). I really can't talk though, because I got a pretty expensive new toy too. We finally took the plunge and bought a dishwasher (hallelujah! I hate washing dishes). We bought it last weekend, and it sat in it's home, not hooked up to anything all week, until yesterday. B's dad came over to set it up yesterday morning, I put my first load of dirty dishes in yesterday afternoon ... and then we found out that there's an issue somewhere along the line - the dishwasher wasn't getting any water in it. Pops is supposed to fix it sometime this afternoon when we grill out for Mother's Day.
I have been on a blog reading bender lately - I came across a blog that was really funny and interesting over NIAW (one of my friends posted a link to it), and then from that blog I found another and another and another ... and now I'm following like a dozen new blogs written by amazing women (and some of their husbands) about their journey through infertility. The sense of support from the infertility community is amazing. In an overwhelming time filled with medications and procedures and stupid advice and heartbreak, it's nice to have somewhere to turn where there are people who understand.
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